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1seal the deal… Welcome back, Jungles. [14 Jul 2008|01:12am] On account that I can't sleep, I randomly thought of livejournal. Sure enough, I still have one... though it's been 61 weeks since my last post. I dunno, I'd say that's too damn long. So, here are my thoughts right now. 61 weeks is a long time, and a lot has happened and changed in my life. I'm not in the mood to go through those changes one by one, but they are pretty significant things. I'm realizing how quickly a year has passed.... WAY too quickly. As much that has changed, it didn't seem like an appropriate amount of time to make those changes. I guess what all of this nonsense is trying to mean is this... Time is weird. It flies by. When you have a moment to actually evaluate things, you realize nothing is what it was when you last posted. Friends changed. My career plans changed. Hell, I've changed. All you can depend on is change.... and hopefully someone special to roll through those changes with. ;)

seal the deal… [11 May 2007|12:57pm] I have White Stripes tickets. I'm really excited!

2seal the deal… [26 Mar 2007|12:27am] I'm exhausted. Too many papers/tests/projects to be done. I'm busting my ass to graduate early. I hope this all pays off.

2seal the deal… [21 Mar 2007|05:23pm] I hate allergies. Whenever I feel sick, I get emotionally sick too. Boo. Someone make me smile!

4seal the deal… [13 Mar 2007|11:31pm] On March 19th, there will be a vigil at Denny Chimes to remember the lost soldiers since the invasion of Iraq four years ago. It starts at 5pm. I'm also looking for some people to speak on behalf of their experiences and affiliation with the war. Let me know if you want to come so I can have signs made. Thanks.

seal the deal… [12 Feb 2007|06:26pm] I need a life vacation.... Any suggestions as to when, where, and how?

2seal the deal… I needed that [04 Feb 2007|11:18pm] I'm finding out that the older I get, my thoughts are becoming more and more personal and sacred. I'm not updating on this thing very often, and I keep such thoughts to myself. Why is this? A little girl was killed this weekend. She was only four. While her father stepped out of the room for a second, the tv fell on her and crushed her leaving her dead. It's awful, and I feel completely helpless with my thoughts. I can't even imagine what her family is going through.... her mother... When my Maddox I died, I felt completely lost. I remember sleeping with his toys for several weeks just to remember his scent. As I held his dying body that day, I remember yelling and screaming. As a friend commented, I sounded like I "no longer had a will to live." It was true. I was mourning. I simply cannot imagine the pain of burrying my child. My flesh. My baby. I sit here looking at Maddox II (I named him in honor of the first one) and he's perfect in my eyes. I look at him and see so much of his brother. The memory of him stays alive each time I see Maddox. He's here with me, even still. I can feel it. As much as I love Maddox and Sadie, is it possible to even replace Maddox I? Is it even possible to replace anything at all? In every failed friendship, in every failed relationship, in every failed attempt through life can we really just forget the past with something new? Will this new puppy make up for the loss of the last one? Can the fact of having other children really buffer the pain of losing a child? Will the new boyfriend really be better than the last? I'm not really sure. I'd assume it's different for everyone. For me, my past is what I hold as truth. No matter which way I look at it, it happened the way it did. I can lie to myself, but the truth reveals itself through the outcome. I can't replace, and I choose not to. I still love the ones I've claimed to love.  I still care for the friends I've cut ties with. I've just moved on from those feelings in hopes to find new people to share them with. I guess that's what makes the difference... "like moses has power over sea; so you've got power over me."

2seal the deal… [25 Jan 2007|10:04pm] I am so ready to graduate. I am ready to leave Tuscaloosa for good. My head is killing me. I can't keep my eyes open. I'm not even sure if I'm going to class tomorrow, because I can't even see. Sadie (the cat) keeps running away. It's pissing me off. I spent too much damn money yesterday on getting her shots up to date for her to keep pulling this shut. Maddox is still Maddox. This weekend, I'm studying for the LSAT with my Dad. Sounds fun huh? I have a new connection. My mom met some guy who was one of the founding attorneys for Bausch and Bingham. Sweet huh?

seal the deal… [21 Jan 2007|12:38am] Maddox posing. He loves the camera.

2seal the deal… [19 Jan 2007|01:00pm] I'm really tired. I have class tonight from 6-9. Then tomorrow from 9am-5pm. AHHH!

7seal the deal… [06 Jan 2007|12:06am] I am taking the LSAT on June 11th, 2007. With the newfound severe testing anxiety I have due to said LSAT, I have started studying now. I hate studying for this stuff. It's like taking the ACT/SAT/(insert whatever boring test) over and over again. This blows, and I'm rethinking law school since I'm so freaking scared of this test. I NEED HELP PEOPLE. Give me some words of wisdom. I'm seriously asking for help....

2seal the deal… Here's the latest. [01 Jan 2007|02:07pm] Here are my New Year's resolutions: 1) Graduate by 2007. 2) Do well on my LSAT 3) Get lots of scholarship money to pay for the $40,000/ yr tuition! YIKES! 4) Have a selection of law schools to choose from. 5)Here's the big one...... I want to live a life worth writing beautiful poetry about.  I want a life that you only hear about in beautiful melodies of songs. Whether it be love, or child, family, or career, I want to live a life with no regrets.  I have had many regrets in my life, and I'm learning that it is simply a waste of time to do so. You learn the most from the moments in life that are the worst. I've had 20 years of hard times... some of those being ones I've inflicted on myself. The rest of those moments were due to how I reacted to the bad things. I want the rest of my life to be the moments of happiness and the opened-eye "aHah" moments. I am worthy of true love from another. I deeply believe in the power of love, and I know God won't leave me behind in finding me a mate. I'm not going to settle for anything less than what I deserve. I'm ready for whatever comes next in my life. I really am. I guess this is more of a life resolution rather than a yearly one. But hey, what better way to start the year than with a new frame of mind.

6seal the deal… Maybe I'll sleep around. [22 Dec 2006|08:25pm] Okay, I'm going to be honest here. I think that's allowed, right? I don't think I have ever been romantically involved with a truly decent man. One that is strong, but loving. They must go together. Where is he? I'm not exactly looking, because I'm content with my life. It's just that sometimes the lonliness hurts no matter how strong you think you are. It really bothers me when I talk to someone (usually this person is involved with someone) and I'm told that I should be complete and whole without a guy.... Who says I'm not? Even strong people need people. And if girlfriends can miss their boyfriends every second of the day, can't I, a single woman, miss the idea of someone holding me at night? It just doesn't seem fair. Why am I not allowed to experience the same tried and true emotions of any person regardless of relationship status? I've made my New Year's resolution, but I'm not sharing it until I can actually put it into words without sounding like a blithering idiot.  If I don't update before Christmas or New Years, then everyone be careful and don't be fucking morons on the road. Love you all.

2seal the deal… [21 Dec 2006|09:49pm] I feel ugly. Just plain, boring, and ugly. The end.

2seal the deal… Hope [20 Dec 2006|07:54pm] I'm ready to go to Chicago. I love winter clothes, and it's so much fun to be bundled up in cute sweaters and snow boots with my hair in pig tails. That's my Chicago relaxed style. When it's time for the city, it's long coats and spikey-heeled shoes, and sun glasses. Why I'm talking about clothes? I dunno. Ashley and Benji (the newlyweds!!!) have been calling my house "home" this week. I love them so much, and am sooo thrilled for them. I just know they will be together forever. Their love for each other is perhaps the most pure and beautiful love I have ever seen in my life. It gives me hope that a love like that does exist. I'm not dealing with anything BUT that kind of love. I deserve it. Their love is timeless... as it should be. Thank god for them and giving me hope in love. Yay! Have I mentioned I'm ready to go to Chicago??? ;)

seal the deal… Bah. [15 Dec 2006|09:36pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | Johnny Cash and some CCR ] I'm so freakin' tired. I'm not one of those people who is like, "Sweet! School's over! Let's get wasted!" No. I'm more like,"Thank God. SLEEP!" I decided to pull out the Johnny Cash tonight. Damn he's amazing. Ah! Why does music suck nowadays? I swear if I see another dude with crappy haircuts and make-up, I'm gonna puke. I really have this weird and safe feeling that there is this amazing man out there looking for me. I know he's not in Alabama though. It's weird, but I'm 100% confident about that. We will find each other someday. Till then... I'm gonna travel and conquer. Just like any 20 yr-old woman should do.

8seal the deal… [14 Dec 2006|05:55pm] "Walk This Way" is one of those songs that just shouldn't be re-done.... especially not with a crappy pop/dance drum track... Shiver.... ew.

2seal the deal… [12 Dec 2006|11:03pm] I got most of my Christmas shopping done today. I'm blowing through too much money. I really should be more frugal and save up for books, but meh. I finished the hair pieces for my dancers. Each one is a combination of real poinsettas, glitter, and rhinestones, attached to a clip thing. I must say, I am impressed with my crafty talent. Aside from being TOTALLY and COMPLETELY stressed out, life is really good. I am looking forward to some time in Chicago and New Orleans during the holidays.

seal the deal… [06 Dec 2006|04:11pm] There is a carbon monoxide leak IN my house. Well, it's heat related. So I have to keep the heat off until the system gets replaced. Will, 1/3 of my landlord, is coming over tonight to discuss what to do since there is a problem. BUT IT'S COOOOLD!!!!

seal the deal… [05 Dec 2006|05:24pm] I'm starting to get tired of school.  That's not too bad since I'm just starting to get that feeling, and exams are next week with a long break after that.  I definitely need this break away from Tuscaloosa. I'm looking forward to spending time in Chicago with my family and getting to look at some prospective law schools. Then, I'm possibly going to California over New Year's. YAY!  Life is changing, it's always changing. I'm just going about these things day by day. I don't think I could be more disgusted with a place than I am with Tuscaloosa. Maybe it's because I know the politics of the area, the people, etc. It physically makes me sick. I have decided a career in politics is not for me. I simply cannot live like that. However, I'll be more than happy to marry a politician and blaze the politician trail hand-in-hand with him.  ;) His career. Not mine. As for me, I'm passionate about lots of things, and I look forward to using my legal expertise to push new things forward to futher those passions. It's a big world that I'm just starting to experience. I'm HOPEFULLY getting a job with Sirote & Permutt, PC. AKA, the largest law firm in the state of Alabama and a very influencial law firm in the country! I'm hoping to start work after graduating in Dec. 2007.  I want to work there, make money, and learn the ropes until I leave for whereverville for law school the next fall. I'll be in Birmingham, but very busy. I really need this for my career. Keep your fingers crossed, and keep me in your prayers! By the way, have I told you I love you guys? Because I do. All of you.

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